Dark days are upon me.
I suppose I’ve had it good this Fall. While I’ve been extremely sick with the flu, I’ve oddly been more motivated than ever to get my future on track. The foreseeable future, anyway.
But then come those days where a cloud, a dark gray cloud hangs over your head. And it’s for no particular reason, but it’s there. And on these days you don’t want to be anywhere near yourself.
Should I even be doing this with my life?
You confuse yourself over your goals, your ambitions.
You doubt every talent, every skill that you thought you had.
You’re so busy mentally bashing yourself that you haven’t even gotten to the physical flaws yet. (Maybe that’s a good thing?)
Have you had these days? Luckily, I’m pretty good at concealing this dark mental consciousness from others, but it certainly prevails when I’m alone. That, paired with being a person who always prefers being alone..is not a good match.
Today was pretty bad. It was dark. Dreary. Dim. I was left questioning everything. Everything I’m doing. Everything I am. Which sucks because December had started out so well.
But these days come. And they go.
And tomorrow is a new day.